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WENDYWEESANSAN
APRIL 17
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CURRENTLY AN UNDERGRADUATE STUDENT IN DIPLOMA IN GRAPHIC DESIGN & MULTIMEDIA

December 2009
January 2010

I tried to do the best but that is the best that I can... I just realised, I was a fool.
When the truth revealed unintentionally, I am again in despair.
I know it's nothing much but I just couldn't help feeling that way.

I guess, because of uncertainties, I am now rather walking on the path I had been walking all along and it feels good so far.

Sometimes I just feel like going back to the past, to when I never knew you.
F*ck technologies. I've been hearing stories from friends from far and near bout their relationships and so on but people, sometimes y'all just gotta chill. No offensive but texting and calling your partner when they're having an outing or whatever things they're doing are just gonna get them more annoyed. So when you guys meet up the next day and so on, if he/she couldn't stand the fact that you're bugging them, there'll be dramas. All over the place.

Some said I shouldn't be so relax in a relationship but that's the way I am and I like it that way, but doesn't mean I don't care bout the opposite sex. To me, a relationship indeed is a thing to be treasure and appreciate but when things turn sour, who's to be blame?

One of my friends told me that she thinks her boyfriend is cheating on her and not calling and texting her as often as before. He doesn't let her tagging along with him anymore when he's out. So? Do you expect a guy to call and text you all the time just to fulfill your happiness? What about his? Even if he is cheating on you behind, what more can you do? You chose to be with him and when he didn't text or call, then you're all sad and angry. For no texting and calling? If he doesn't love you anymore, he could have called off the relationship but he didn't. Why? Because there's still you inside of him. You should've known better if he's fooling around with you or not. But if he is to leave you for another, do not blame him. No one is at fault. Don't blame yourself for being a bad partner. You did your part and he chose to go another way, then you can too. Don't jail up yourself in this pathetic way of life. There's still so much more wonders out there.

Maybe you might think whatever I said are unacceptable. It's up to you to listen or not. It's your own life, your own happiness. You think he is all the happiness in the world to you then you're wrong.

No doubt that one day we're all gonna get married and have babies and a family, but by the end of the day someday, you're still gonna go through everyday on your own because it's your journey. Not others.

Ok. I said so much but yeah, little things I just wanna ramble bout myself is that, yes. I'm not the kind of person that checks on my boyfriend's messages and his personal unless he asked me to. I don't care who is inside his contact lists eventhough they are full of girls' names or whatsoever. I never bother to ask "Who is this girl? Why did you text her? Why did she text you? Why are you going out with her? Why she chat with you? Chat bout what? Why is she your stepsis? Blablabla crap questions".

I do not have a habit of taking his cellphone and browse through not unnecessary stuff because I respect each other's privacy plus, I trust him and to me, that's important. I don't wanna force him to trust me in things I do. I do not control his life so I don't expect him to be a control freak either. I do not wanna bother much bout people that doesn't concern me as long as they don't come bug into my life. Frankly speaking, I don't even wanna know who is he talking with or whatever things he is doing because he is free to do so. Even if he is my husband one day, he is still a free-man as long as he takes good care and provide enough for the family. He is free to make friend with anyone.

I admit that when sometimes I get really sad over unnecessary stuff and craps but hey, I'm a human too and I have feelings. Sometimes I just couldn't help feeling sad after knowing some stupid shit but yeah, those were in the past. Way back before I even knew who he was so the next moment I didn't give a damn bout those shits. Things like that make me feel shitty.

Most of the time he's the one telling me who is this who is that and that's that. Nothing more because they ain't important. Often time he's the one checking my cellphone and I'm cool with it. Tho sometimes he had this frown upon his face which signed disappointments but yeah, I did explain my part and whether to trust me or not, it's up to him. I do not wanna force him into trusting me if he don't but once I said my words, it's done.

I know myself well enough so I know what gets me upset and what makes me happy but I don't have to tell anyone if I don't feel like it. I am very emotional for some reason during certain time of the month but I'm cutting down that attitude as it's dragging the hell out of my life.

I know that we are at the early stage of a relationship but months past by and no one knows what's gonna happen in the future. I don't know how long is this relationship gonna last but everyday is a gift. If we're meant to be, we are. If we're not, then we're not. As simple as that. No such things as love forever or eternity. So if he chose to walk out of my life one day, I won't stop him. For sure there's gonna be the pain enduring moments but yeah, life goes on no matter what. Who knows better ones come along later.

And again, nothing too serious for me. Just enjoy life. It sucks doesn't it when someone tells you what's good and what's not good for you. What suits you and what doesn't. What's good and what's bad.

Conclusion is that... that never bothers me.

Why listen to others when you know what's best for you?

Just feeling a little not too over mad.

Decided to delete old archives and start a new blog with my old url.

Currently in the process of editing new layout for my blog. I haven't done that in a long long time after I'd graduated since secondary.

Though my blog was like really really damn for this 2 years I guess. I don't really care whether will the traffics increase in here or not.

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